Not With You

I'm not with you.
I can't even see you.
Mainly because I can't even see myself
I haven't even tried to see God.
I can't see you yet
Instead I must see God first.
I don't even know if you exist
My heart longs to know
But this pain keeps me locked away from seeing anyone
It holds me captive from seeing so clear
Your on my path I hope
But even if you are I still can't see you
I want to see God first
I don't want you to come and see me so broken
I don't want you to save me
I want God to save me

Waiting for you

Sometimes I wonder if you are waiting for me too.
I wonder what your heart beat sounds like, 
I even wonder about what the color of your eyes may look like
I bet your built into the very image that God has awaiting for me
One of the keys to God's vision for my purpose
The very half of my heart.
Wondering if I was created just for you.
Do you pray for me as you wait?
If so I hope that it may be night and day
I hope that you will come my way one day
A part of me knows your some where
Some how I know God had to create you for me 
Because He loves me that much
I wonder if my heart will be ready for you
If I will be the image that you saw in your dreams
Will I fit the vision that God has for your life?
Will I be a good enough wife?
Can my heart rest on yours forever here on Earth
Will you see the beauty within me.
Will I be able to see the beauty within you.
I wonder if your thinking or praying for me right now.
Does your heart already skip a beat when you think of me
When will we meet for the first time
When will my eyes see yours and find God's vision with your heart
Will I be made complete before us meeting
Healed and restored before we even start God's vision
These are the things I think of while waiting
Thinking how long will it take and when will be our first date

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