Not With You

I'm not with you.
I can't even see you.
Mainly because I can't even see myself
I haven't even tried to see God.
I can't see you yet
Instead I must see God first.
I don't even know if you exist
My heart longs to know
But this pain keeps me locked away from seeing anyone
It holds me captive from seeing so clear
Your on my path I hope
But even if you are I still can't see you
I want to see God first
I don't want you to come and see me so broken
I don't want you to save me
I want God to save me